What if it is a 5 to a 3 ?

Which one is more potent in my full of psychology and psychiatry life? 

Let's see How it Works:

We have an experientially-psychically, induced 'Thud' which, however, is not adequately explained through objective experience. It is, obviously, an "ID" explosion of sorts which can lead directly to Enlightenment, if contained, through work and an adequate pharmaceutical assistance on the spot! Unfortunately, in my case, it has atrophied through neglect. As a consequence I have to go through chronic madness, sadness and incompleteness. 

Nevertheless, memories of fun times, along with the MASTER'S teaching do remain, including Psychiatry, anti-psychotic pills right and left, along with some unfinished psychotherapy.

Time proves a healer, however, for this Enlightenment experience, which remains  Id-in- a-hibernetic state. Suddenly all of the experience, time and space, comes together through PEN AND NEEDLE (2013).

Then all the TELEVISION "5s"' of the WORLD fall on to the empirical-Pavlovian even, I might say, level, of my conscious mind.

What shall we call THIS ?  "Then unfettered he obeys his master", perhaps? Look at the Zen experience; it looks like the "taming". Really..., after 10 years?

The real-real SHOCKER in the story is:  I am finally with the Michael Hughes of old.

Dare now to raise a finger, and old Gutei will chop it off.